He is...

           Last night I went to a church service, now this is different in a couple of ways. 1 it was a Saturday, 2 it was at 7pm, and 3 Matt Chandler was there... Look him up he is amazing. See during the time he was speaking i was trying my absolute best to keep up with everything that was being said, but that isn't the most easy thing to do when Matt Chandler is throwing the Gospel down your throat. And i mean this in the best way possible he was giving out so much knowledge i even as deep as i am couldn't keep up. After he made his last point and wrapped up the service with a prayer, the seven of us that attended left. It is a 45 minute ride home but we stop to get some food. This entire time i sat in quiet and we are almost completely home before i thought i was done processing what he said. And to be honest i wasn't even close. I mean the magnitude of his speaking was incredible. It gave me cold chills when he depicted how God ruthlessly and viciously pursued after him and how that through these series of events he finally surrendered. And i was bewildered when i started to think... well i was like that too. Why couldn't i go looking out for Jesus and not vice-versa? I sadly never came to the conclusion. Something he said later struck home. He said that he doesn't what his kids to have to be in that situation he said that he wants them from the day they are born to know Jesus and love him. He said he wanted there walk to be continuous and to have never ending growth. I don't know what that looks like. Because well my growth falters from time to time.I have had a rocky past full of sin and evil deeds against God, but another thing he said is compared to the men and women of the Bible we are JV sinners. That we have nothing against these people. So what makes our sin so much different than theirs? Nothing at all our sin is no better or worse than theirs was. Nothing we do is any greater a sin or lesser a sin than what happened back in biblical times. 
           See the point behind all of those details was that God is bigger than you and I and that no matter how many times we screw things up, stumble, and quite frankly fail at being a Christ Follower, Jesus died on the cross for us! Nothing we can do can thwart that. EVER...


Do you get it? Jesus went through hell on Earth so that we could find eternal life. So we don't only live once, so we don't lose hope, so we don't die, and alone not knowing true love. He is... Love... Compassion... Forgiveness... Grace... Hope... Joy... Happiness... He is ultimately as Christ Followers our identity... He is.

It Matters.

 It's weird how thing click so randomly. To be even more random i wasn't even supposed to be here which idk i might have covered. I don't remember. Back on track the trip was about 300 dollars and i hadn't planned on going because of the amount of money. Well my youth pastor and God worked some things out and got together enough money for me to go and then some... The funny part about this is they raised  the money the day before we left for Philly. Amazing how things work out. No. Its amazing how God works. And simply put there is no denying it with out God i wouldn't have made it on the trip.

What does it mean to go on a mission trip? The reality of this idea hit me in the middle of the introduction of  a church service in Philly. I mean yes obviously we are serving people. But is it that manageable of a thought process to absorb.? Well i am here to tell you its not. In the service that we are exemplifying upon others and the community around us there is we are practicing good stewardship, caring for others, branching out to others, engrossing our lives in ethnic groups that quiet frankly we never would be in if it wasn't God's will and most of being disciples spreading the gospel or the good news to people. See you need to get this we as Christ Followers are supposed to be put in uncomfortable situations so we can overcome through God and grow in him. If we were not tested then we would not know where we stood, not that it matters but we as humans need growth and foundation upon which we grow from. 

That being said every act of kindness, wickedness, love, hate, lust, innocence. Every tiny little thing matters. IT MATTERS if you walk passed the girl crying and you don't say a word because you think its not your business. IT MATTERS when a middle-schooler from your youth group is hurting and you go and talk to them telling them words of encouragement reaching out to them making sure they know they are loved. IT MATTERS WHEN THE PERSON NEXT TO YOU THINKS ALL HOPE IS LOST AND YOU TELL THEM THAT THROUGH JESUS CHRIST WE WILL BE SET FREE AND THAT NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.

Get on your knees and repent, confess your sins be convicted by the holy spirit, IT MATTERS.

Decisions

Every second of everyday we make decisions and each and everyone of them effects the next . I want people to understand that every decision we make is a life changing one. Because something we do now may not affect us until three days from now a week a month a year even. Until we are surrounded by and elaborate web of decisions that we are stuck with and we didn't know when we made them that we would come to the surface or make an impact on our lives or even other peoples. And i know we have heard the timeless cliches you reap what you sow and what goes around comes around. But the truth is these are more than true it even says so in scripture matter of fact Paul dedicated a whole chapter to it in Galatians. Its chapter 6 read it... It may change your outlook on life.  We make tons of microscopic choices every day and it starts that web i was talking about earlier... Because of the choices we make that we think don't matter in our lives or others, we become hardened and complacent to them. I am guilty of this myself... I do it all the time and i often find my self in the middle of the filth of sin that i had committed in past years before i became close to the lord. Regardless those little decisions that were nothing now mean absolutely everything... Girls and guys alike we often think that we are to good to minister and help people that have been engrossed in sin. The bibles says if we think that about others than we are nobodies.Get this go out and minister help those who don't know better as well as those who do but cannot help themselves. Any ways thanks for reading there will be a bunch more here to come in the future, sorry for the sloppiness of my grammar i am exhausted. 


God bless i love you all.

Anger, Rage, Wrath...

Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath: For the wrath of man worketh not the righteousness of God.


This week has been hell i don't know any other real way to put it. Me personally i sin. I cuss and i have problems controlling my thoughts. I wont lie I'm being straight forward, but the worst thing is when you get so mad you lash out and say things or get physical because you cant respond any differently. Or at least you don't think you can. 


See my environment growing up wasn't to bad. i grew up in a family where venting your anger was just something that involved yelling and threats and a slap every once in a while or a harsh spanking but other than that nothing more. So naturally i grew more and more accustomed to showing my anger til i got to the point where i was upset and raging all the time... with the influence of God and a couple of good beatings from my mom  that subsided and more or less i can control it.... well as of lately its been being tested. And when i mean being tested i mean its like putting an addict in front of their addiction and saying its yours but its the last time you can have it for a longggggg time. So finally after this week of being tried i took the bait. And it felt amazing... Til i came down off the rage then i realized i just really messed up. What was messed up about it is i snapped so hard i don't even remember what all was said and if i didn't have some one to cull my rage i would have probably been in jail right now. Its like something Benjamin Franklin once said, what begins in anger ends in shame. And all crap aside i was embarrassed and ashamed that i let go like that.

Take heed don't make my mistake fight against it, God blesses those who are merciful, for they will be shown mercy. Matthew 5:7 ...

 Get this guys. Its crucial that im not wasting my time i want to see a change in the world. Pay it forward. when your mad bury yourself in scripture and prayer. Dont lash out and be foolish... please I am saying this in utter desperation.
God blesses those who work for peace, for they will be called the children of God. get this its important that you understand peacemaking isn't only of that around you but in your heart... do it through Christ i will leave you guys with this.... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
GOOD NIGHT

Scripture stuffs Valentines Day

Philippians is letters from Paul to a church. And must i say this guy was well is a genius. Check it he says dear brothers and sisters I AM STILL NOT ALL I SHOULD BE! That coming from one of the most holy men of the era. He is essentially saying i can do BETTER and i will work harder to be more like Jesus. He then says racing to the finish to receive the prize for which God through Christ is Heaven.
Christians and doubters alike we are not meant to be perfect to never sin because if that was the case God wouldn't have sent his only son to die a brutal death for us. Later on in the book Paul says as Christ Followers we should be eagerly waiting to the return of our savior. So that he will take these weak mortal bodies of ours and change them to be glorious like his. Death is not something to be afraid of people. He also says be full of JOY  in the Lord. Rejoice! be considerate in all you do! Remember the Lord is coming soon. Don't worry about anything; pray about everything and tell God what you need and be thankful for all he gave you!


ALL THIS IS COMING FROM A MAN IN JAIL! we are free with little that stands in our way look at the Bill of Rights people. But yet we find it hard to rejoice... And tell others of the Gospel or the Good news... I mean i am sitting in my room depressed and all i can think about is. How can i help the people around me i feel like we are all spiraling out of Gods reach. I heard today that God has a hand reaching to all of us but its OUR job more like obligation to reach up a receive him guys this is huge, please get this. God helps those who helps themselves. 
I am a sinner don't get me wrong and i strive to stay pure every day is a struggle. Following Christ doesn't make it easy on us. I promise it will fill like the weight of the world is on you until you realize its all worth it. Then it will be gone. Idk how to stress this anymore. I love all and wish for greatness out of you. Keep your heads up guys. Keep it real. Im out

feb 13 2012

I had something special planned for today but then i left it at school. What i had planned was every 2 or 3 days i will do a mainly scripture based blog. For those who read my blog but don't seem to ingest the bible as well. Anyways that will be coming tomorrow most likely. But other than that i want to give a shout out to the people who read this i love fed back it makes my day walking into a class and someone say hey i read your blog... Its amazing. Or even if some1 was to tell me they didnt like it I would be happy because hey their reading it. Anyways back to todays subject... I have a football game i will cut it short so i am typing fast and not thinking stuff through... So sorry for any mistakes

ILL BE BACK! WISH ME LUCK AND SEND ME PRAYER REQUEST OR TESTIMONIALS ANYTHING I CAN TIE INTO THIS TO SHOW GOD IS AMAZING...

FEB 12TH!!

IT'LL BE A LONG ONE TODAY!


I started typing this big long rant about Valentines day and what is represents then i realized... Eh i could careless about what it means to other people cause it means absolutely nothing to me, AT ALL... I know I'm sad and going to be lonely the rest of my life right? Oh well. Moving on i was having a conversation with my youth pastor JJ and i forget what we were talking about but my mind began to wander to the possibility of me being some1 that actually does good in the world and doesn't fall  in the basic scheme of things once i get to old for youth group. As most of us know i am by no means an amazing example of purity, patience, wisdom or even happiness for that matter. But the truth of the matter is people seem to look up to me. Even if it is only my little brother or some of the freshman on the wrestling and football team or the middle schoolers at church. People look up to me... WOW that's an amazing thought, so that means nothing i do gets just looked over. Nothing i say gets tossed in the trash. Wait that's kind of scary isn't it? I mean what if they knew who we are in secret what effect would that have on them?  I mean I'm asking this hoping to get responses. How do you think people feel that look up to us as Christ Followers feel when we show them we care, and its not superficial. Its funny how little things in our behavior may make some people love or despise us. Well sorry for rambling what i am meaning is YOU yes YOU reading this has some1 watching you that thinks the world of you and if there is a side of them you don't want them to see as Christ Followers than its probably not a side you should have. I mean i am not perfect no where near but i am working slowly to be a better example for those people. I mean I'm not famous by no means but my blogs have been read about 600 times which means there is a pretty decent possibility someone has taken stock in what i have said and changed. IDK maybe I'm imagining things but i feel like God is moving rapidly through our generation. Lets make a stand a difference to the people who look up and respect us. Lets change people by changing. One more thing i love all everyone. And remember your defined not by your worst moments but by who you are going to be through God.

this is the type of stuff i listen to... Though i'd share

Today is the 9th day of February of the year of 2012

Sometimes things need to get worse before they get better...

             Do you understand what this means? It means that God is going to test us and test us and test us until we think how can things get worse. And guess what... IT'LL GET WORSE! What people don't realize is that as Christians we have to be tested to stay honest to ourselves and to God. Idk what more to say than that. Short Post today guys... One more thing KEEP YOUR HEADS UP NO MATTER WHAT, PEOPLE LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU. 

God is lord. God is love. God is life. LIVE IT.

Feb 8th, 2012

Today i took a listen to pure music challenge... It will be one of the most hard things in the world to do. Don't get me wrong i am going to succeed but it wont be easy. 
On the other hand how often do are we driving on the road of life without a map... Just winging it. Taking back roads to nowhere and highways to regret. Or even getting some positive things out of the experiences we have. Well think about it this way whether you want to realize it or not our life isn't in our own hands. Sure we have free will. But if God wants us to come home. Then we as Christians have no other choice. On another note, where do we draw the line saying this is enough? I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of being depressed, I'm tired of being stuck in this clique, just being tired to the point of breaking down. Or do we put one foot forward and be different and say hey... I'm not really like you I'm like ME. And ME as an INDIVIDUAL believes in God and is not perfect but is striving everyday. Sure i have mishaps but i am a Christ Follower and through him all things are possible.


In youth group today at Merge Student Ministries i was listening to J.J. Gawlowicz talk about this amazing winter retreat we went on two weekends ago. There was tons of bonding in the group and of the multitude of people who were at the event people stepped up out of no where. I mean middle school kids taking charge people who I had never heard talk before making a voice for themselves through Christ. But it dawned on me i had been part of that trip for 2 years consecutive and unfortunately next year i will not be able to go. I began to wonder to myself have i impacted the people around me enough to where i will live on through their decisions and thought process will my actions help these amazing individuals shape their lives to become something great or will they say... Oh yeah Trey ha ha he was.... coool? Idk food for thought I guess #impactyear...
That is all see yous guys tomorrow...

Feb. 7th, 2012

I'm challenging myself to start blogging... About anything and everything see if i can get any one's attention i used to blog pretty regularly but now. I'm going to do it everyday. Some days... are going to be very boring but other days, i will have a bit more motivation.

           Today in American govt i had a very interesting conversation with a group of individuals. And one guy in particular hated Christians saying that we were all hypocrites and that we all believed that if its not our way its no way... Then this genius Jose Aroma Viera interjected.. Saying that Jesus never called anyone to a religion, that he called them to faith. And that got me to thinking... What kind of world would we live if people stopped pushing a religion and started telling people about the awesomeness of Jesus. Not that hey you gotta believe us or you gonna rot in Hell... Maybe that's not the best thing to tell skeptics. Idk just my opinion...

           But hey read it follow it idk...Oh yeah check out Jose's music he is amazing.

Thoughts

I cant think of any better time to do this post. I love everyone and i am thankful for all who influenced
my life good and bad. But there are way to many wreck less thinkers in this world... I look at it this way say a fire is started, and when you go to put it out by spraying water on it the only thing it does is spreads. So here you are thinking.... Why didn't that work..? Or are you saying oh MORE WATER!!!
Majority of people are saying more water... But what you don't know is its a grease fire, and that water will only make it worse and worse. See here's the thing we hear about people talking bad about us or something goes wrong in our lives and we get set in our ways thinking of only 1 solution however radical or passive it maybe. Why not consider multiple and even ask someone more intelligent than you like God... Hah just saying oh well LOVE ALL Y'ALL.

This is a good friend of mine. Listen to the Lyrics. Dig deeper than normal you might like it.

Bailey Hill-My Mission.

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone on the outside watching the world unfold. I seem to believe it's my job to see things fall apart, find a solution to the problem, and go put them back together again or that I'm the one who needs to help someone in pain or need.  If I hear about someone that's upset, my heart skips a beat and I feel as if I'm on another mission. I feel sympathy for anyone and everyone no matter what our relationship is. Because of this, I feel like there is a constant nagging on me. But that's not the problem. The problem is that because of the responsibility I take on mentally, I am constantly put down. Society isn't..happy. And it's not always my fault. Placing that much blame on myself is probably absurd to you, but I think of myself as failing when I can't lift up someone's spirit. I get tired of seeing people unchanged and so I move on and just keep them in my prayers, but now I've gotten to the point where although my life is full of people, I somehow feel abandoned. Well, with God because he's the only one who doesn't fail to love me and is always proud of me. But I'm still in need of someone. Someone who I can tell all my secrets to, someone I can love and someone that can join me...on my mission.

Barriers.

So its been a good amount of time. Sorry for the absence here is some food for thought.


Have you ever sat down and thought that ever since we were little people have shaped us... Shaped us into what we are now and the littlest gesture of negativity when we were younger would wreck us. Now we turn that some times constructive criticism into something worse than need be, blocking it from our minds because we have barriers that haven't been broken.


The barriers that keep us from being open minded and keep us from doing our duty not only Christ followers but friends and in our relationships as well. People have different perspectives at all time. And for as long as there are people on Earth there will be a point in which we were shaped that we will differ from some of the most important people in our life's. 


That being said. We have a chance to listen or not listen to be open minded to change or not to. God gave us that right. We can break out of the 3-d square (aka a box). Its simple just think things through. Accept fact, look at things from a different angle there are usually more than one way to solve a problem. And when you seek for advice... Don't get mad your the one that asked.

Plants Submerged Stewart, Trey

As Christ followers we are like plants. Plants with stunted growth due to the masses that believe in fueling their fleshly cravings and urges or people who flat out don't believe in Christ. We are those plants that you so seldom see poking out of the paved streets and sidewalks which are the foundation of every where we travel in life. As these plants all we strive for is the light of day. When we finally end up in the sun which God our eternal father created we are cut back with the weed wacker sprayed with a chemical or we are caught by a creeping vine that latches on and steals our thoughts and drains our perspectives. The vine the weed wacker and the pesticide are all things subjected to the devils grasp, easily manipulated to the things of this world all working to destroy us as Christ followers. Take a second and think logically how many of these plants sticking out of the cement are alone... And if alone are they alive? Yeah not many last in the sun when they are alone. Alone we are more easily destroyed by the weed wacker, the chemicals and vines.
CHRIST FOLLOWERS ARE A DYING RACE. We are becoming so accessible by the worldly desires that we aren't spreading the gospel we are hoping it will catch on. We are weakened with out the Lord in our lives. We as Christ Followers are not meant to sit back and watch the Earth fall to pieces. So when we finally get to bask in the sun help the others to push through the "concrete" which is SIN, DESIRE, TEMPTATION AND MOST OF ALL FACING ADVERSITY. 


JESUS SAYS I AM THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE. Believe it! 

Relationships...

Time to get real people. I am noticing more and more people getting boyfriends/girlfriends. Not saying this is a bad thing this could be a potential make or break with people an eye opener.But the thing about relationships are we can either live for them, or we can try and have a life as well.  We need balance in our lives people really when you have to cater your equal 24/7 then there is something seriously wrong. Majority of us "fall in love". But are we falling for the right reasons? In a relationship we tend to go out of our comfort zone. Wether its trying a new church or making some desicions that down the road will not look to bright. Im not typing this up to lecture. Im saying this to try to keep us from falling in a hole. We need to realise the order in which we should give attention to things God being the first and formost thing on that list the other things are up to you we should try to grow stronger in the lord through our relationships with other people. We can grow in our Faith and in our relationships at the same time it is possible. Its all hard work.

Ask yourself these four simple questions:

1.) Are you doing the right thing by God in your relationships?
2.)Am i treating my equal with respect?
3.)Am i happy with where i am?
4.)Am i representing the God or my Flesh?

Bailey Hill- Age

Age is really nothing but a number..

Some say the older you get the more mature you become,

but this isn't always true. Some teenagers have more common

sense, and are more mature than many adults. There are many

rules that are based on being old enough to do things on your 

own, such as being able to drink legally or drive legally. But us,

as teenagers, seem to be able to break those as well. Some adults 

say they are wiser or smarter because they are older, but many younger

people know and understand just as much. As years go by, 

you see more and more teenagers in the newspaper or on the

news for sports or making some sort of big impact. 

So, my message to you is that we can start succeeding now. 

Don't ever let someone tell you that you are 'too' young.

Stand up for your beliefs, take on a challenge, and never

give up because of someone older's criticism. You can be
anyone you want to be!

1 Timothy 4:12

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young,

but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in

love, in faith, and in purity. 

Giving in...

Philipians:1:29

"For to you it has been granted on behalf of Christ, not only to believe in him but to also suffer for his sake."

         Its one thing to believe it is another to act upon it and live by faith in God. When we do we will suffer from wounds/blows from our fleshly needs. But to endure them we have to give into Gods almight grace.

Eventually there will be a time in our lifes were we look back and saty how did i comply to all those useless, pointless longings.You will think about the time you changed how you looked/acted to get the girl/guy or the time you did something redicilous to fit in or get noticed. That is part of what our body wants us as christians to do. More or less we are going to end with the same concluding thoughts or explantions.

This will mean nothing in the eyes of our creator our father, God almighty himself.  In order to somewhat avoid this train of thought we need to live life for Jesus Christ! We all mess up at times which goes back to the fact that we need to give into the fact that God is all forgiving and fall into his Almighty Glory!

Bailey Hill- Drifting from God Q&A

Recently I've been asked to give advice on the same topic multiple times.
This is directly from someone, but I'd feel the same towards anyone that
is having this problem. I feel like there may be people out there who don't
 know me, but have the same issue. So if you're having even the slightest doubts in God.
Read this.

Question..

-Soo, I've been kinda slipping away from God... 
And like, I really want to be close with him,
 but I have so many doubts and stuff/: Like.. I dunnno..

Answer..

-The farther away you get from God the easier it is to doubt him. You might have noticed this. The reason you're having these doubts is because you're too far from him to see the great things he's done for you. This is my idea... because this situation has happened to me as well, about a year ago.. Get a Bible, if you have one, great and if not I'll buy one for you♥ But everyy*night before bed, not matter how tired you are, read mm.. let's say a paragraph. Quantity doesn't matter, just as much as you can comprehend that nighttt. It seems like nothing once you start doing it, but it can surely help you realize how much has already been done for you. And help you notice the little things that normally wouldn't go through your mind. I don't dedicate as much time as I should to him, none of us do. I don't go to church every Sunday, better yet I honestly never go.. I hate that, but yet I find other ways to get him in my life, whether it's the music, or just talking to him at night. Also, as you keep drifting away, which is easy as a teenager, it's easier for the devil to mess with your head and thoughts. You might think things are better than before, but truly you're making all the wrong decisions.. I'm not saying that's you, and i don't think it is, but you will often hear something or get a feeling you should back away from doing something or being someone your not. That's God having your back.. For now, just try your best to stay strong, keep your head up and a smile on your face. At night, talk to him. Tell him you're having doubts, but that you need him in your life. Ask for help and explain your worries! You can do it, babeee! I'm here EVERY step of the way. I promise ♥

Players

In this so called thing of life aren't we all pieces, tools and players!
I mean if you seriously think about it literally speaking, we either are being put into place to fit for a bigger picture or being used for the greater cause or even playing trying to get ahead in life and the pursuit of happiness. It all sounds so clique if you just hear it. But put it to thought we have brains for a reason. I do realise the tone of this post is very different then the other ones and that is for specific reason. Life needs a balance. With out it we become corrupt we cant all just cant expect to go through life living as players and expect to not get played. Or being a tool without getting banged up in the process.
The moral of this is literal take life as it comes expect the unexpected work for the greater cause whatever you think that may be or know trust in something bigger than you and don't play cause eventually it'll come back to haunt you.

Bailey Hill- Words Are Powerful

When you hear of abuse, stealing, or pain you probably think of an action. You might picture someone robbing a bank or maybe someone punching another person. But words can commit crimes just as hurtful as these.

James 3:6 says "The tongue is a flame of fire. It is a whole world of wickedness, corrupting your entire body."

Words can do things as powerful as legally promise marriage to as hurtful as causing someone to commit suicide. These days, words are thrown all over the place. People say love and hate without reason or truth to back them up. It's easy to fall for people's tricks and lies are unbreakable habits to some. I'm someone who many rely on for advice or come to talk to about problems. Often, the biggest problems are caused by someone saying too much or holding back and not saying enough. It's hard to express feelings and show how much you care in words, but encouragement is always on a person's list of 'needs'. Always remember to thank those who have done the littlest of things for you and make sure you tell the people who matter most, how much you appreciate them.